Goals and Deadlines

I have learned that without specific goals I get nowhere.  Not only do I need goals, but deadlines are helpful.  I guess that's procrastination at its finest.  So, I'm trying to set definite goals.  Like blogging every day to help my creativity flow.  So, here I am, blogging so that maybe I can let out some of the creative tension that's starting to build up inside my soul.  I can tell this is happening because Husband has looked at me the past two nights and said, "Have you blogged lately?"  He knows it's my creative outlet.  And he encourages it.  Makes me love him even more.

But, alas, I have drifted off topic.  Goals and deadlines.  Another goal that I am going to set for myself is that I write and article for Helium once a day.  Well, every weekday.  This way, even if they are of poor quality to begin with, they will hopefully grow as I write.  If I never feed my creativity, it will never grow...

It's a pretty hefty goal, but I believe I can do it!

Motherhood

Once again I've been absent for too long from the blogging world.  With good reason, but still I think my soul is starting to rot without my creative outlet.  So here I am.

I have so many things to write about and I just don't know where to start.  Having an infant in the house does interesting things to a person't psyche.  Which I knew going into this, but I don't think I KNEW...  Everything from the interrupted sleep, to the cries of hunger (hers and mine), to the never-ending flow of laundry and diapers to that stupid nose-sucker-thingy... (Evalyn and I both despise it, her more than I.)  But that's not the part that messes with your brain.  The part that messes with me is that I actually enjoy it all.  I love it...  all the gross stuff that I want to hate.  I guess superhuman-mom powers really do get born with the baby.  What else would explain it? 

Well, it's either that or the delirious state that I'm in from exhaustion...  I'm not sure which...

Methodical Madness

So, here I am, up bright and early for a change.  And, can I tell a secret?  I kind of like it.  It's peaceful, tranquil, and it makes me think that I may actually have a productive day!  I laid in bed for an hour before I finally got up. All I could think about was all the projects I want to get accomplished today.  Starting with breakfast for Husband.  Of course, it's still too early to start that, and I had an itch to write.  Just simply write.  And seeing as I can't (or maybe don't want to) hunt down my journal, here is where I turn.

I just caught up on the blogs that I have neglected to read due to my absence from the blogging world...  and one of my favorites was my brother's.  I don't know why, but it really gave me a chuckle.  Well, if you knew my brother you would understand!  And, from it sprang a fun phrase for me to meditate on....  Methodical Madness.

Methodical Madness....  I think that is the order in which God lives by.  Everything on our end seems like madness, but for Him, oh there is definitely method behind it.  Like 9 + months of pregnancy, or meeting the man you're going to marry and then not dating for 4 years, or giving someone like me the responsibility of an entire youth program at a parish, or free will.....

The list could go on and on and on.  And as I look back on what I just wrote, a lot of them are ways in which I think God is teaching me patience.  I really wish Husband would stop praying for that.  ;)  The point (if there is one) is that what is on the outside, the nuttshell, if you will, is only harvesting something much much bigger and better, the fruit or the nutt of life...
All the things we see that we can't find a reason to, well, it's there, we just may never know what it is.


Hmmm  I wonder if that analogy will make any sense when I come back and read that tomorrow....

Here's to a day filled with blessings and love.  And productivity.

The End

I've always heard the last few weeks of pregnancy can really be a drag.  I'm really trying not to see it that way.  Of course, I have reached the point in which I just don't believe that a baby is actually in there....  and Husband said he reached that point this morning.  I really have convinced myself that I will be 400 pounds with a 4 year old in my uterus...  Might make a good TV show.

I've decided to make a list of everything I have done that I wouldn't have if I didn't have a baby to wait on:

Found a great little antique/ flea market in Levelland
Started blogging again
Cleaned and organized the house in like and hour (I felt like I was on speed that night)
Sat at the goosepond (a pond in Levelland geese visit in the winter) on the one gorgeous day we had this week
Haven't gone to work in 2 weeks
Missed a great concert (it was 2 1/2 hours away)
Got addicted to Live! with Regis and Kelly, along with The View
Spent part of Spring Break with my mom in town (missed going anywhere for Spring Break)
Still sitting in PJ's at 1 in the afternoon (shower soon to follow this post)
Sit around wanting excruciating pain to start (seems a little crazy)


And here is a list of all the things I will get finished today due to this kid staying cozy:

Finish the pajama pants I started to make for Husband and I
Clean the house again
Make Husband dinner
Hang out with the bestie?  (I should call her...)
Go to work for 30 minutes to finish some things I need to finish
Pray


I think if I add anymore on to the list I won't get anything finished and then I would be really sad...  So, here's to a productive day!!!  Wish me luck!!!

Wishcasting Wednesday: Take a Break

Today is Wishcasting Wednesday.  And I have been so absent from the blogging world that it took a lot for me to come back even though it is so relieving whenever I post.  So, I am re-emerging myself into this space, with quite a question from Jamie this week.

What do you wish to take a break from?


Hmmm.....

I'm actually tired of taking a break.  I haven't been to work in a week and a half and I don't really want to go back.  Being around people right now is so taxing.

I guess you could say that I want to take a break from being on break.  I'm ready (ish) for this new change.  I'm ready for life to get back to normal.  Well, as normal as it can get after a baby is born.  I wish to take a break from my own brain, from the waiting, and most of all from my whiny self.  But, all that aside, life is life, and I really am blessed with an amazing husband, a great job, a loving family, and that is what I never want a break from.

Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep

I don't really know what to write about right now, but I had the inkling to post, so here I am.  A relaxed night in the McNutt household.  Although, I really need to finish the laundry, finish the dishes, and find some more food...  Hmmmm...

This week has been great, but I am going back to the phase of feeling unproductive.  Ugh, it's because I haven't been able to sleep less than 12 hours a night.  I know what you're thinking, that that is a crazy thing to be annoyed about, but seriously, I wake up feeling like I'm getting nothing accomplished.  This morning I actually got up to go to Mass, I ate breakfast with Husband, and then he left for work and I still had almost an hour before Mass.  So what did I do?  I fell asleep on the couch.  Yep, and then I didn't wake up until WAAAAAAYYYY later....  So once again I wasted a morning away, and the crazy thing is I'm fighting to keep my eyelids open right now.  Pregnant body is so crazy.....  I guess it's just preparing for life with a new baby around.  I know I won't be able to sleep at all then....

But, I am blessed enough to be able to sleep in when I need it, even if it is an entire week of it.  We'll see how life goes in the next couple of months.  It should be interesting for sure!

Signs of a Blessed Pregnant Woman

Many days I sit back and thank God for the many blessings in life.  This past week has been one filled with God's blessings through many different people.  I must admit that lately I have been tired and overwhelmed from different things in life, and of course God provides us with more grace and understanding than we can handle.  It's a good thing.

Let me start with a co-worker of Wade's.  She called and said, 'I know what it's like this stage in the pregnancy, I want to come clean your house.'  Um, I would have been an idiot not to take her up on this offer.  It made me cry a little, seeing as I hadn't had the energy or willpower to even do the dishes in like 2 weeks.  So, we got kicked out of our house and went on a date and got home and the house was spit-shined and amazing!  I've never been able to get my floors this clean.  Seriously.  Blessing #1.

Number Dos:  Friends.  They are like gold.  I have had some great times with some around here lately.  From our super short Super Bowl party (a sign that we are getting all growned up.)  To the days I get to spend with my new, dear friend Megan.  I'm telling you, it takes a true friend to go with you to a breastfeeding workshop when she's not even preggers.  Of course, we went to the bead store, Chick-fil-A and looked for Valentine's stuff for the hubbies.  It was a relaxing night out.  (Although the workshop was simply a joke of a DVD.)  Definitely a needed evening of pure joy and fun.

And probably my favorite pregnant blessing of the week (besides the fact that I have life growing within me, that's a constant one, though) is this:  the other night I had been so tired, I think I slept on average about 13 hours this past weekend, anyway, I mentioned how great a bubble bath would be.  The next thing I knew, my wonderful husband had scrubbed the tub down (although I think it had been scrubbed previously by afore mentioned house cleaning) and then he drew me a nice warm bubble bath, complete with my current read, a hot cup of peppermint tea, and candlelight.  It was so relaxing, I think I spent at least an hour and a half in the tub while Husband and Dog were playing on the ukulele.  In fact, I think I may repeat that about right now....

May every pregnant woman have as many great people in her life as I do!